A little blog I wrote about 2 years ago, and then some

April 11, 2006

A Very Simple Truth

So.. I was just sitting the other day reflecting on my life... I was thinking.. "how did i ever get to where I am now with becoming a 'screw up'". I then look back at the things that made me who I am. A large part I give to my mom.. My mom is the most special woman I know. For her to struggle through this aweful disease, and still be able to laugh and love is amazing to me. She is such an example of faith. I love her so much. She taught me that it isn't worth it to mess things up for something that wont last. She taught me how to cook. The best memories I have with her was before she got too sick, she was helping me to make pizza... This was my most favorite thing to make with her. I memorized her recipe. I also thank her for taking the time to be with me and teach me to do that! The other memory is of her calling me "Naomi Marguerite" and saying it with a ring to it! Then just saying she loved me, or just sitting on her lap when i was little and her telling me she loved me and that all of her daughters were just so beautiful!  I lov her so much and her example I hope i can teach my kids truth like she taught it to me.  Her disease is also a part of what has made me who I am. I don't think i would be as honest and true to myself had it not been for this trial that is currently a part of my life also. I have had to grow up like I never thought I would. I have had to learn to be responsible and help to take care of my family.  We all took care of each other. I don't take any credit for raising my sisters alone. I believe we all had a part in each others life. We looked out for each other and helped each other to the best of our ability. I tis what we had to do to stay strong.  My sisters are definitely some of my best friends!  I feel pretty certainly that we were all put here together in our family for this specific purpose to be there for each other and to help each other.  I know we all are here to help each other to become everything that we can and to make the best decisions in life as far as health, spirtuality, and in eternity.  For my mom and my sisters I am very grateful. I also have a lot to give to my church leaders who acted as 2nd noms to me, and also as leaders.  There are a certain few who have blessed my life greatly and I wish more than anything to be able to be that kind of a leader to a young woman who I may come into contact with.  Those leaders helped me to stay on track in life, they were friends who would talk with me like a mother, but again as a friend also.  They taught me many gospel truths and values which have made a huge difference and strengthened my testimony of the truthfulness of it. 

I love my family and my leaders and my church. I also love  my friends.. My closest friends in church, if I didn't have them i am sure I would have found a different way. I am so grateful for their friendships, they may not know just how much I came to trust them. I did my best when I was with them.  I was not always ms perfect but I did my best and they helped me to be my best and to stay out of most trouble.  I am very grateful to them and I love them also.  I have so much in my heart right now i just wanted to write it down.  I love my life and I love my church, my family, leaders, and friends. I am so blessed to have had every person a part of my life. Thanks to anyone and everyone who has been an example to me of truth and honesty and hard work! I love you all!!!!  End~

April 11, 2008

looking at my life now 2 years later. I really do feel so happy to have come to where I am right now.  Over the last 2 years I have been in a few different wards. I have met new people who have been such good examples to me. There were a few women in my last ward in boise, who helped me a ton with EmmaLynn when I had to go back to work. They didn't want to get paid, they just wanted to help and they loved to take EmmaLynn.  I I got to work with one of them in Achievement Days, it was so fun and nice to have a good friend.

 I am so happy to have such a beautiful daughter and a husband who treats me very well. He has days where he is really thoughtful and others where he is very forgetful, but I still love him! :)  I am grateful to my in-laws for their kindness.  My sister in Law Jennifer, what a great sister she is! She also helped me out with EmmaLynn.. actually watched her for several months the whole time I was at work. She was also fun to hang out with and talk to.. She is another best friend I have that I also call my sister! Love her and miss her a ton! 

To my parent in laws I am very grateful for their generosity in allowing us to live in their basement for a short time. Hopefully by the end of summer after we are done in Florida we can be on our own again and debt free!  

I have also been so blessed to have been near Eleasha to spend a lot of time with her and her kids. She is also an example I look up to. She is an awesome mother and she is great with her kids! I am grateful to have the opportunity to spend time with her and have fun and learn from her! 

Now lastly but not least at all I am grateful for the church leaders and especially Gordon B. Hinckley. He was such a great prophet I loved to hear from him, and looked forward to every time he spoke. He was for sure a prophet called of God, and now with our new prophet Thomas S. Monson, I know he will be a great prophet as well. I love the gospel and love our leaders. I am blessed to have been born into the gospel! 

 I am glad to say I still have many people that have come into my life at this point also who are helpful in many ways!  I know there will be many more.  Now is there anything better than that!?.....