My mother

Well, It has been quite a long week. We traveled for 3 days from Florida to California. We arrived in California at 4 am and got up at 7 to get to LAX to catch our flights to Spokane for the funeral. Not only were we exhausted but being pregnant on top of everything proved to be a bit more difficult.

 I made it in time to Spokane to be with my sisters to dress my mom in her temple clothes. A very hard, and bittersweet thing. It was so hard to see her body and not see her smile like she always did. Yet, I know she was there with us in spirit. It was difficult but a privilege nonetheless. Some moments it still feels unreal, even though I know it is real. There are still tears when I think about her and how much I will miss her. I am so grateful for her and everything she taught me. She was so talented and she was so patient and always willing to do whatever needed to be done to help us girls. She taught us many things, and I am who I am because of her and her trial. She is such a great example of endurance, even in the hardest of times she joked and laughed, and always had a smile on her face. She served as much as she could whenever she could.  She even was able to help and uplift others simply by her sweet spirit, and in this way blessed many lives when she physically couldn't. I am so thankful for her example and her love. 

The service was sweet and exactly what she wanted. She always wanted us to celebrate her life and not to mourn her death. So we had balloons and cake just as she requested. There is still an empty place that will not be filled by anyone but her and for that there will always be a little sadness, but also a hope to live my life worthily to be able to be with her once again.  I am so grateful for the plan of salvation that allows us to be families forever. I am so thankful that Heavenly Father allowed Me and my sisters to be here on this earth together with our dear Mother. 

Thank you so much for all your thoughts and prayers. They are greatly appreciated.  

In Loving Memory

This is probably the hardest post to write. I have such mixed feelings about it. I am incredibly sad and yet peaceful. My Sweet mom passed away Sunday morning. She had MS for 15 or so years. We knew it was coming, but it definitely doesn't make it any easier. She is such a great woman, and she held on for so long. She truly did endure to the end. It is tough to be so far away from family at a time like this. I've cried and cried and I know there is more still to come.  I also know that our family can be together again forever. I know she is freed from her diseased body.  Walking and talking and doing many things as she did before she became too sick.  I know with all the knowledge she gained while in this life, she will be a great missionary for those who didn't have the chance in this life. I love my mom, and I am so grateful for the example she has been to me all these years. I will miss her very much. I can't wait to be with her once more and for her to be able to walk to me and welcome me home one day. There will be and open service in Spokane this Saturday May 30th. 

1 Week Down 1 to Go

Well, this week has been super crazy, and a bit lonely.  I have been able to work mornings again.  I found that the morning isn't too bad. Especially cause I keep myself busy at work for the most part. EmmaLynn has had a blast playing with our friends kids this week. She got to play in the pool and go to the park several times.  She may enjoy being there more than being home.  Someday I will be able to not work and do those things too.  

Dan has done well for the first week. He has sold 3 systems. He will be in California for 1 more week. I can't wait for him to come home. He'll be back on the 18th, I just have to make it through this next week.  

Here are the pictures of EmmaLynn  I talked about last time. We had come home and found what looked like a real lizard.  It was actually a lizard skin that it shed. I picked it up by the tail and teased her a bit... but then she wanted to hold it. she played with it for a few minutes till I said enough and threw it over the balcony.  Time to wash our hands now..  

Time will only tell

Well, good news is that the green capsules have worked wonders on the taste thing. My hope was it would help the sickness as well.  It was just that though, a hope.  I have had somedays that were terrible. Some days are better than others. Only time will cure the sickness now. Until then Dan is helping out a lot still.  This Sunday he is leaving for California for sales, so I am going to have to suck it up and deal with the sickness and take care of everything all by myself... For a couple of weeks. 

I am dreading it, but also hope he does extremely well and makes it very worth it.  Then when he comes back we will have the neurologist appointment to find out weather Air Force is going to happen or not. Hopefully he gets in, waiting is so stressful. 

I have some cute pictures of EmmaLynn but I can't find my USB cord to upload them. I'll post them later. 

The cure?

Well, While I have been super sick I have been so lucky to have Dan.  He has been doing all the cleaning and cooking and even laundry.  He has been so kind and sweet to me.  I hate this beginning part of pregnancy.  It is so miserable. I just have to tell myself, the end product is worth it. 

This last couple of weeks I found that I had this terrible taste in my mouth after a certain time at night. It was so bad it made me want to throw up.  I have been luck so far not to actually do it, but feeling it is still yucky.  I was sucking on lemons to try to get rid of this taste in my mouth. and it wasn't helping.  I was trying to suck on candy but when it was finished, the taste in my mouth was worse.  I asked around and a few people I talked to had experienced the same thing. They just said they had to constantly suck on something.  Their doctors just told them to suck on mints, and it lasted their whole pregnancy. I knew there had to be more to it. I was not going to put up with it anymore. Luckily I have a great sister who knows a lot about the body and why it does certain things. I found it was due to my body being so acidic. I needed to make it more alkaline.  I was missing different important greens in my system. So I went to the store yesterday and found a product called Amazing Grass. I got it and took about 20 pills yesterday, and what do you know it helped right away.  The taste in my mouth is gone. I have to take it for a few weeks more, to get my body where it needs to be, but I am so excited that it worked.  I am feeling much better already and it has even helped my sickness some too. I am waiting out the rest of today to see what happens, but hopefully I have finished the sick part of this pregnancy by taking these pills. They have wheatgrass, barley, and all sorts of other green things and probiotics.  They have all sorts of good things in them. 

So I am so grateful for a helpful kind loving husband and a sister who helped me cure the nasty taste in my mouth.  Hopefully this is the end of the sickness in pregnancy. I hope this helps someone out. Cause that taste is the worse thing you could ever have to deal with besides the regular sickness of pregnancy.  If you have or have had a taste like this try this, it really can help, and it is really good for you otherwise too.  

Oh yea...

These last few weeks I have been having some trouble. I have not been feeling well. I have been enduring it, but we went to the doctor to find out what all was going on,  and found out there is a growth in my tummy.  We don't know what exactly it is yet... but we are giving it some time to see what happens. I have been taking some pills to try to help it. Only time will tell how it turns out. It is not life threatening at this point. I have another appointment in May to check up on it and see how it is going, if it is growing or not.  We should be able to take care of it by the end of November, if it hasn't worked itself out on its own sooner than that. We will see what happens. Don't worry though everything will be fine.  

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It is all quite unexpected, but still exciting. 

Easter Fun

Happy Easter all, We've had quite a time so far. Here are a few pictures of our weekend so far.  They are backwards. Saturday is at the bottom and the end of Church at the top obviously. Since we have church at 1 to 4 EmmaLynn gets pretty tuckered out afterwards. She just laid down with the new bunny she got for easter. so cute.

Before church she was standing at the door with her bunny. So excited to go to nursery today. 
Snacking before church. 
She woke up and found a trail of easter eggs leading to her easter basket.  She learned a little bit Saturday about easter eggs and how they have candy inside them. She was absolutely thilled to find so many in one basket.
Saturday, our friends they Hodges, invited us over to their house to color eggs with them and hang out. EmmaLynn had fun dropping the eggs in and putting stickers on when they were done drying. The rest of the time she got to play with one of her favorite friends Courtney.
 We went to downtown Saturday morning for their Eggstravagaza one of the radio stations was advertising all week. They had free breakfast, face painting, pictures with the Easter Bunny and other things. She just made a sad face cause we wouldn't let her just run around. 
Kinda silly picture while we were walking around Sunday morning. It was near the river and it was very beautiful. 
Here we are just getting started on our easter eggstravaganza.   This has been such a fun easter with EmmaLynn older now and understanding how things work. It is so fun.